Children of Chaos

  …The Tyranosaur doesn’t obey any set patterns… The essence of chaos.  It [chaos] deals with predictability in complex systems. The shorthand is the ‘Butterfly Effect’. The butterfly flaps it’s wings in Beijing and in Central Park you get rain instead of sunshine… I’m going too fast, I did a flyby…  ..Tiny variations [that] never repeat and Read more about Children of Chaos[…]

Truth is like Poetry

…And everybody fucking hates poetry. I heard this line in ‘The Big Short’. Nobody saw it coming. Nobody ever does. Let’s just ride the wave. I’m making money man. There can’t be an end to THAT. Denial ain’t just that river. I watched the movie with some trepidation, but having seen how it all happened, Read more about Truth is like Poetry[…]

Blind Faith

Faith and Trust.  These are two different things.  Faith and trust are indeed contradictory. Trust is earned, faith is blind.  Faith requires no evidence for belief or practice.  The very nature of faith surmises that tangible evidence doesn’t exist.  Otherwise, there is manifestation.  Trust is based largely on evidence that is real.  In order to trust, there are usually some verifiable facts. Trust is the Read more about Blind Faith[…]

A Muted Cry from Myself…

I am a curious guy. It’s in my blood. But then curiosity is one of those dopamine responses. Read my post on Little Addictions, and you’ll realize that we are addicted to everything. Literally EVERYTHING. The brain was designed to be curious; to love a ‘good’ plot and narrative, and to learn new things. As Read more about A Muted Cry from Myself…[…]

Sombody’s Goin’ to Emergency

It’s been a long week. The days sometimes go by slowly. It started out simple and easy enough. Then it became complicated and difficult. I took a commitment to pick up some people on my way to a 7:00 AM meeting. I did that so I’d be sure to go. Seven O’Clock comes early, but I Read more about Sombody’s Goin’ to Emergency[…]

The Politics of Contraband

I have a friend who lives in gratitude.  He is grateful he was a heroin addict. It has given him perspective and gratitude. He always tells me he’s grateful to wake up and still be this side of the dirt.  He says he has no problem with death and dying, he’s just grateful he’s not Read more about The Politics of Contraband[…]

I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends

Coping tools come in handy sometimes.  Over the past two years I’ve been therapized to death with relapse prevention techniques, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Yoga, Meditation, Tai Chi, group therapy, personal therapy, Motivational Enhancement Therapy, Neurofeedback and of course, contingency management.  Otherwise known as ‘Plan B’. My sister always asks, “What’s plan B? That’s whatever happens Read more about I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends[…]

The Most Loving Show On Earth

It’s all a mystery to me sometimes.  Why do we meet, drink coffee, smoke cigarettes and and talk? My friend Steven calls it The Most Loving Show On Earth.  Usually I see him on Sunday afternoons.  Today I’m spending what Gary Chapman calls quality time with my lovely wife.  Happy Sunday Steven.  At least I’m Read more about The Most Loving Show On Earth[…]

City of the Fallen Angels

LA, city of the fallen angels. I’ve lived here all my life.  My dad visited LA during World War II. They wouldn’t let him join the army, but that’s another story for another time. He worked for the post office and travelled around; Utah, California, Los Angeles. He was born and raised in Minnesota, so Read more about City of the Fallen Angels[…]

Little Addictions

So what do Social Networks, Food, Video Games, Music, Television, Cell Phones, Shopping, Gambling, Work, Sex, Exercise, Adrenaline and the Internet all have in common? Well, like drugs, these things lead us to an odd behavior, but really all things considered, it’s not so odd. We become addicted. They are all non-substance little addictions. Of Read more about Little Addictions[…]

Lies I Told Myself

  “…We feel that elimination of our drinking is but a beginning. A much more important demonstration of our principles lies before us in our respective homes, occupations and affairs…” What greater demonstration of principles could there be than the truth?  If you look at the home page of this blog, there are a number Read more about Lies I Told Myself[…]

Nothing is ever Good Enough

Nothing is ever good enough. I’m not good enough. I leaned that from my dad. Unhappy, a dissatisfied customer.  Indeed, that would be me.  Somewhere I keep hearing this little voice. I hear it so often lately I’m wondering if I’m attending to stimuli.  That’s what the psychiatrists call it.  My son has Schizophrenia. It’s a strange disease; Read more about Nothing is ever Good Enough[…]

Change is Good – You Go First

The first caveat to this nonsensical post is that Scott Adams’ Dilbert cartoon strip is NOT approved literature for the squeamish.  Funny indeed, but painful.  In the words of the immortal Scott Adams: Change is good, You go first.  The therapy lightbulb joke is: How many therapists does it take to change a lightbulb?  Only Read more about Change is Good – You Go First[…]